To youngsters with thoughts of violence.?

When I was young I was having thoughts of violence against my mother. After a few times they were getting worse and worse. My ex-stepfather had been a teacher and so I thought that if I wrote down my thoughts it would help. If you are having thoughts of violence you should write them down now before you read any farther. It was amazing what happened next. I reread what I wrote and the only thought that came to me was that I just wrote out proof of my crime. I decided to save it in the closet (symbolic) and hoped that it would not get discovered and hoped that if it did at least I would get helped. The confession led to the symbolism and the symbolism led to peace and the peace led me to the answer. In the moment of peace that I felt when I thought I had my answer for help my eyes wandered over to my bedroom window where I saw the rosebush my grandmother had planted under it for me. It was then that the real answer dawned on me and I saw what I had not been able to see. Normally when you look out the window you cannot see light or air, but I could see the rosebush planted by my mom's own mother and I knew then the answer and the question. Please do not just read this but do it yourself on your knees and see what happens.